Letter

Here I want to sincerely apologies for the action I’ve made. I know there is much stuff that I can’t be forgiven for, but I know I will sure gain your forgiveness one day. Mother, you have been with me ever since I was young. You cared for me like no any mother would. I’m sorry I couldn't’t be the smart girl you wanna me to be. The girl that love science and become a doctor or someone that earns lots of money in the future. Sometimes I wonder why was every family you’ve known having the daughters or sons of your dream. Smart and intelligent in many ways and matter. Yet I sit here failing my exams and making you mad all the time. Daddy, I know that you’ve been upset many times in my result. When my cousin scored high marks and was told to you by grandma, you always come home with that look of sadness and shame. But the love you had for me, you've show me that bitter smile hoping to hide everything away. Well daddy, for your information I can sometimes see it. Years of working had put you in pain. You taught me from what is right and wrong, and you also teach me to not be mad at people and learn to forgive. Well, you teach me the right thing to do and now I am living in a world where there is no one that I could stay mad on. Not blaming you on this, but it seem the concept had make us both been used by people. And daddy, I am sorry I can’t be the pianist of your dream. I took piano as an excuse of not studying, but the moment I took my step into college everything change and soon I found my real calling to my life. You were upset that evening when you saw the letter of my failing my exam, I over heard you talking to mom about it. Saying that you will give up on me, I know that night you were talking harsh words and not wanting me to hear. But daddy, if you wanna do that next time, please check if my window is close first. After you said those words I gave up everything in life, I began to cut myself in order to feel pain and knowing I am still human, but daddy those words really hurts. Many things I wanna say sorry to both of you, but I guess this are the important one that I need to say. I am sorry I couldn’t complete your dreams for me. But I can reassure you that my result on the course I am taking now won’t ever let you down. Here I end this letter, and hoping it will never reach your hands.